So i read my homey page and realized that she is setting some end of the year goals for herself. And not for any other purpose than to lay stepping stones for her to be able to inherit the desires of her heart and so that God can bless her with the things that she truly needs and also to line her up to his purpose. That is a focus for me as well. Im tired of listing very unrealistic things that i know i dont really want but should because the world says i should. I just simply want to be happy in all aspects of my life and recieve the many blessings God has for me. So with that being said, here are my end of the year goals...effective 10/1 (or sooner):
- No matter what, Id like to have dropped by 1/1/12 20lbs. I have struggled with sticking to a work out schedule and plan for years. Don't get me wrong, i love myself and my body and I am A-ok with getting older. Getting older is a right that God gives us. Its not meant to look like a 12 yr old when you are 40...well at least not for me. But when my children leave the nest, i plan to travel. And lord willing i have a husband but if he doesn't see fit for me to have one, i wanna be at my best. And i cannot be that way with the 50 pounds that i have on my body that need to go. I cant say baby weight no more because guess what, my oldest will be 13 in 10 weeks and yea...uhm...yea no lol.
- Credit score but be up by at least 10-15 points and i can effect this by continuing to pay my bills on time and by December 1st, the last 3 debts that i have will be gone. I want to move and own my own home. Im just tired of renting and i want something nice in a neighborhood that fits me and the way i choose to live.
- I want my bank account to be PHIZZAT! And i wanna have a certain amount in savings left to be untouched by Jan 1st.
- Im in actually in progress of this but id like my divorce to be finally rounding the end. Nuff said LOL its been way to long
- I need to be efficient in being organized and not taking on tasks that i cannot handle or will take up to much time
There is more that i can list, and later through out the week i will. But this is the ground work to the beginning of becoming a better Cec! I love my life and my friends and the Lord and i am happy and i want things to stay this way for as long as it can.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Frustration
Now, one thing about me that i hate is that i get frustrated and discouraged very easily. And thats not good because i get thrown off real quickly and whatever may have put me in that mood, i tend to hold on to and dont need to. Half the time, its not even THAT deep and i realize it once i get over my emotion. But tonight, my frustration lies in the fact, and i try to tell people and warn them...i cannot stand stupid people. Let me explain my issue.
I am an assistant coach for 10-12 yr old girls. I love helping put together dance moves and love helping be a little small part of these young ladies lives in a positive ways..helping them learn things that they will need for life. I want to be someone that they think about in the future when they are grown and remember when. We all had a few people in our lives that we have great memories with. But there is one child, her mother is actually a coach on another team and has been for i would guess for about 10 years. Her mother is a sweetheart and would give the shirt off her back if that meant helping someone else. But she has a daughter that has the complete and i do mean completely DIFFERENT reputation and unfortunately i have the pleasure (NOT) of coaching her this year. She is like the devil child. In fact she reminds me of that movie Problem Child (except she hasn't staged in any freak stunts or accidents for someone to be harmed in, well at least not yet). She is disrespectful to anyone that she feels is going against her. She is spoiled beyond reason. She is a liar. She has a reputation that speaks well before her and she thinks in her mind that she is a grown woman because her family (including her mother) treats her as such.
Ok cool.Whatever. That's fine. I refuse to tell people how to raise their kids because I'm not very open to hearing any advice myself. So i stays out of it. BUT ..if my daughters, any of them, were to conduct themselves in this manner...well lets just say id not have the title of single mother anymore. Id just be single. I am not one to really deal with bad ass kids but this child is under my authority. And ive had to check her twice. Both times she has lied to her mother and both times her mom has come to me (in a nice way) to find out what happened. Both times i have explained. Both times her daughter has been talked to about her behavior and each time, she proceeds to do what she wants. Ok this is an issue for me cause im tired of refraining from choking the shit out of UR child. Something u should be doing and with her ...that would be a daily task.
To make a long story short, i'm seriously contemplating walking away from this organization and take my desire to help and do something else. I notice that i don't have patience for anything that is a waste of my time or i cannot control. And for me to remain sane, continue to be happy and remain focused on my goal, ill walk away. Its a shame that there is no help really coming from the parental side because she treats her mother worst than she doesn't other adults and doesn't listen to her at all... so go figure.So i have decided no matter what, i will not be returning as a coach next year. It hurts me because again i love working with kids but as i explained to one of my closest friends, i don't think being around children on a regular basis is what God has for me to do and if so, I'm definitely going to need him to bestow some patience onto me.
Its sad, we live in a time where kids are just disrespectful to the highest level. And i cannot fault the children because in most cases the parents are just as damn ignorant..so i cannot place to much of the blame on kids. They are to be taught. This is an ongoing issue with no ending so its something id rather not focus to much on. However, one things i learned while dealing with this child is to make sure i tighten up on my parenting and make sure my kids not only understand that disrespect on any level will not be tolerated and also i want them to know the impact of such behaviors. And no matter your background, your financial status, etc ... that kind of attitude will only get you a hard life full of struggling and misery. I cannot stand this little girl YET i pray she gets her act together.
I am an assistant coach for 10-12 yr old girls. I love helping put together dance moves and love helping be a little small part of these young ladies lives in a positive ways..helping them learn things that they will need for life. I want to be someone that they think about in the future when they are grown and remember when. We all had a few people in our lives that we have great memories with. But there is one child, her mother is actually a coach on another team and has been for i would guess for about 10 years. Her mother is a sweetheart and would give the shirt off her back if that meant helping someone else. But she has a daughter that has the complete and i do mean completely DIFFERENT reputation and unfortunately i have the pleasure (NOT) of coaching her this year. She is like the devil child. In fact she reminds me of that movie Problem Child (except she hasn't staged in any freak stunts or accidents for someone to be harmed in, well at least not yet). She is disrespectful to anyone that she feels is going against her. She is spoiled beyond reason. She is a liar. She has a reputation that speaks well before her and she thinks in her mind that she is a grown woman because her family (including her mother) treats her as such.
Ok cool.Whatever. That's fine. I refuse to tell people how to raise their kids because I'm not very open to hearing any advice myself. So i stays out of it. BUT ..if my daughters, any of them, were to conduct themselves in this manner...well lets just say id not have the title of single mother anymore. Id just be single. I am not one to really deal with bad ass kids but this child is under my authority. And ive had to check her twice. Both times she has lied to her mother and both times her mom has come to me (in a nice way) to find out what happened. Both times i have explained. Both times her daughter has been talked to about her behavior and each time, she proceeds to do what she wants. Ok this is an issue for me cause im tired of refraining from choking the shit out of UR child. Something u should be doing and with her ...that would be a daily task.
To make a long story short, i'm seriously contemplating walking away from this organization and take my desire to help and do something else. I notice that i don't have patience for anything that is a waste of my time or i cannot control. And for me to remain sane, continue to be happy and remain focused on my goal, ill walk away. Its a shame that there is no help really coming from the parental side because she treats her mother worst than she doesn't other adults and doesn't listen to her at all... so go figure.So i have decided no matter what, i will not be returning as a coach next year. It hurts me because again i love working with kids but as i explained to one of my closest friends, i don't think being around children on a regular basis is what God has for me to do and if so, I'm definitely going to need him to bestow some patience onto me.
Its sad, we live in a time where kids are just disrespectful to the highest level. And i cannot fault the children because in most cases the parents are just as damn ignorant..so i cannot place to much of the blame on kids. They are to be taught. This is an ongoing issue with no ending so its something id rather not focus to much on. However, one things i learned while dealing with this child is to make sure i tighten up on my parenting and make sure my kids not only understand that disrespect on any level will not be tolerated and also i want them to know the impact of such behaviors. And no matter your background, your financial status, etc ... that kind of attitude will only get you a hard life full of struggling and misery. I cannot stand this little girl YET i pray she gets her act together.
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